Swallow me up
Spit me out
Crush me with your foot
And leave me to die
I don’t want to stay
To exist anymore
I fucking hate life
Every minute every chore
If I had the courage
I would end it all
But because I’m a coward
I’ll shoulder my fall
I hate it more
With every breath
What’s the point?
This torturous test
Take your head
Smash it against the wall
That’s what it feels like
Life this is called
Wish I could choke
Kick the chair to the floor
If I wasn’t so scared
Can’t do this anymore
Listerslyrics 
Oh, Phil. I’m so sorry you feel this way. It sounds like a horrible place to be in right now. I do understand, as I, too, have been in that place many times in the past. It will get better, my friend. Just try to hang on in there. Look after yourself as best you can. You can do this. A comforting {{hug}} for you.
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Thank you Ellie, I’ll get through it, it will seem better when I go back to work
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I hope you are feeling better. I know days like this.
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Thank you, I’m ok, just down
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