Everyone is welcome
Oh the dating world
Back to the first square
As a 40 year with 2 kids
The joy to be looking again
Never have I felt so judged
To be an outsider
I took my nationality off you know
Every little helps
Feels almost dishonest
Well, at least I’m not a killer
Yet
Got to date one first
That’s a long way off
And let’s face it
A catch I am not
It feels like my job searching again
It’s a strange feeling when everything slips between your hands
You question every decision taken wondering if it was ever the plan
Misreading signals it seems at every turn
As if the scorching rod was ever primed to burn
You go back to your past and think about your mistakes
Cursing yourself for every time you should forsake
Maybe it’s better, it has to be for a reason
Otherwise you have just committed treason
Being so hard on yourself with so much time to think
Is the worst thing you could want, pushing yourself to the brink
Even alcohol numbs it, but that’s only temporary
It’s not even a solution, just a stupid hail Mary
Take your mind off things, that one fucking thing
That’s feeding away on you like a terrible sin
Change, get help, do something, God
Breathe with your patience, that’s all that you’ve got
Numb that pain
Numb this shame
Never wanted
To lose the way
The light went out
Can’t hear the shouts
Eyes unopen
Wander astray
Chasm deep
To final sleep
Can finally rest
Escape the test
No will to go on
Same old song
Eerily deep
Enveloping sleep
Fade away
No more play
Whisper now
Final bow
I can’t be with you today
But I think about you all the time
I wish I could be with you
Recite words that rhyme
.
To look into your eyes
Lose myself within
Feel so warm inside
As you let me in
.
To whisper in your ear
Words that make you melt
I will give you all my love
Love you never felt
.
I just want to protect you
Hold you in my arms
To smell your golden hair
Forever in your charm
.
When I finally have you
I will never let you go
When you have perfect love
That is all you should know
Why is he better?
Better than me?
What has he got?
That makes you happy?
I can’t understand
Is it his youth?
Am I just getting
Too old I’m the tooth
Am I just ugly
So unappealing and plain
Do my jokes
Drive you insane?
We smile so much
But we never touch
Him smiling at you
Just boils my blood
But you’re not mine
I keep telling myself
As I put myself
Back on the shelf
To gather more dust
Onlookers fade away
I’m less attractive now
Less fun to play
Who likes damaged books?
Hard to always repair
Much better a new one
Much less despair
.
I know it’s not love
But I loved you
I loved you unconditionally
I loved every single thing about you
.
I loved your eyes
I loved your smile
I loved your spirit
I loved your soul
.
You had my heart the first moment our gazes met
You had my smile every morning we crossed paths
You had my spirit just being in your presence
You had my soul the first moment we talked
.
Now I wipe tears from my eyes
Now I love you but I don’t
Now I just want to sleep
Now I don’t want to be here anymore
.
I am the driver
I can brake, accelerate and choose my destination
I am in control
This time of year is hard
For every single person that is alone
You can do it
Keep going
Power through the tears
Let them out
Don’t be ashamed
It is so good to cry
It is what makes us human
If you can
Talk to someone
You’ll feel so much much better
Even when you feel like you just want to give up
You can get through
There will always be negatives
There will always be positives
Focus on who you love
Give everything
You are beautiful
You are special
You can do this
I fall in love
Again and again
Not knowing what
I’m really feeling
A million love stories
In my head
Toying with me
When I’m in bed
Feeling alone
Feels so bland
Something meaningful
Sand through my hand
I don’t know what I want
I don’t dare try
All I did today
Was cry and cry
I’m not good alone
Just angry and bitter
My heart barely exists
Beat just a flitter
How can I move on?
When I root myself to the past
Do I even want to?
Scared it won’t last?
I can’t even make
That first courageous step
Scared of rejection
I would be left in a mess
So what should I do now?
Try to get some sleep
Figure it out tomorrow
For now I can only weep
I want to go the beach
I want to find my friend
I want to take my clothes off
And go around the bend
I want to love my partner
To sensually intwine
I want to give them everything
Everything that’s mine
I want to feel them on me
To feel myself inside
I want to feel the waves beat
As our skins collide
I want to see the water
Thrash against our skin
I want to push my hands in
And tickle away the sin
I want to feel lost
Till I can never be found
I want you inside me
Like I never knew how
I want to release so hard
Like I never have before
I want it to last forever
And to go on forever more
Will you be with me
When the sun goes down
Now we are wearing each other
As we finally drown
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