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Should we just leave?

It almost seems too good to be true

Finally wounds start to heal

Even the knocks are temporary

Demons remain strong with prying claws

Ever so piercing in every swipe

But the wounds will eventually heal

Determination the healing aura

Searching for the garden fauna

Feeling camouflaged if just for a while

To gain one’s strength, eventually a smile

Even every false smile comes to an end

Desperation feeling easier with a friend

When happiness and sadness tend to collide

Our morale seems to always subside

Taking each day a step at a time

Taking solace in beer and in wine

To drink and drug the problem away

To hide from life, keep the demons at bay

Sink or swim to never be sure

Looking over our shoulders forevermore

Negative fights with us every minute of the day

Time to sleep always kept at bay

Shame full force, looking in the mirror

Fogged up glass, nothing is clearer

Can we breathe this dark oxygen?

Or should we just leave this life of sin?

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The devil opposite

Evasion is sweet

But it’s only temporary

For in the end

You are stationary

The voice is gone

As you just give up

Take what you want

I have nothing much

The barriers put up

In defence

Merely diversion

At what expense?

Sell your soul

To the devil opposite

Don’t ask forgiveness

He doesn’t give a shit

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I sit alone on this chair

I sit alone on this chair

Do you see me, do you see me?

I sit alone on this chair

Do you hear me, do you hear me?

Do I exist in real life?

Does my suffering count?

Do I exist in real life?

Can you hear me shout?

Why do you just walk by?

Why do you let me cry?

Why do you not care?

Why do you just stare?

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Imperfect is perfect

I love hearing them laugh

It makes it a little easier

When life is just so meh

It gets me through the day

My obstacles are all made by my hands

My mind tells my mind you cannot

Why do we hit self destruct?

In a normal day I have to make everything impossible

But upon reflection and taking a step back to look through the fish bowl

I see it doesn’t matter

If I don’t have someone for the right reasons

Why should you force yourself?

Ideal is ideal

But it’s improbable

Life is too short for this

I’m gonna be imperfect

I’m better that way

Because imperfect is perfect

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Breathe with your patience

It’s a strange feeling when everything slips between your hands

You question every decision taken wondering if it was ever the plan

Misreading signals it seems at every turn

As if the scorching rod was ever primed to burn

You go back to your past and think about your mistakes

Cursing yourself for every time you should forsake

Maybe it’s better, it has to be for a reason

Otherwise you have just committed treason

Being so hard on yourself with so much time to think

Is the worst thing you could want, pushing yourself to the brink

Even alcohol numbs it, but that’s only temporary

It’s not even a solution, just a stupid hail Mary

Take your mind off things, that one fucking thing

That’s feeding away on you like a terrible sin

Change, get help, do something, God

Breathe with your patience, that’s all that you’ve got

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Final bow

Numb that pain

Numb this shame

Never wanted

To lose the way

The light went out

Can’t hear the shouts

Eyes unopen

Wander astray

Chasm deep

To final sleep

Can finally rest

Escape the test

No will to go on

Same old song

Eerily deep

Enveloping sleep

Fade away

No more play

Whisper now

Final bow

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For now I can only weep

I fall in love

Again and again

Not knowing what

I’m really feeling

A million love stories

In my head

Toying with me

When I’m in bed

Feeling alone

Feels so bland

Something meaningful

Sand through my hand

I don’t know what I want

I don’t dare try

All I did today

Was cry and cry

I’m not good alone

Just angry and bitter

My heart barely exists

Beat just a flitter

How can I move on?

When I root myself to the past

Do I even want to?

Scared it won’t last?

I can’t even make

That first courageous step

Scared of rejection

I would be left in a mess

So what should I do now?

Try to get some sleep

Figure it out tomorrow

For now I can only weep

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The blackness is back

Why this feeling?

I’m doing better now

But I feel so drained

Just wondering how

To get through

To carry on

When I feel like this

The same old song

I try and try

But I feel so lost

Just when I thought

I was becoming my boss

I relapse again

The blackness is back

For how long this time

This constant attack

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I wanna be a star

Ever noticed how addicted we are

Glued to phones trying to be stars

We want and want with all we have

Selling our souls, such a drag

Like me, follow, I’ll follow you

DMS like counts, waiting in a queue

Until it eats us or we don’t care anymore

And we stop being social medias whore