Everyone is welcome
Oh the dating world
Back to the first square
As a 40 year with 2 kids
The joy to be looking again
Never have I felt so judged
To be an outsider
I took my nationality off you know
Every little helps
Feels almost dishonest
Well, at least I’m not a killer
Yet
Got to date one first
That’s a long way off
And let’s face it
A catch I am not
It feels like my job searching again
I can’t be with you today
But I think about you all the time
I wish I could be with you
Recite words that rhyme
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To look into your eyes
Lose myself within
Feel so warm inside
As you let me in
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To whisper in your ear
Words that make you melt
I will give you all my love
Love you never felt
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I just want to protect you
Hold you in my arms
To smell your golden hair
Forever in your charm
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When I finally have you
I will never let you go
When you have perfect love
That is all you should know
Why is he better?
Better than me?
What has he got?
That makes you happy?
I can’t understand
Is it his youth?
Am I just getting
Too old I’m the tooth
Am I just ugly
So unappealing and plain
Do my jokes
Drive you insane?
We smile so much
But we never touch
Him smiling at you
Just boils my blood
But you’re not mine
I keep telling myself
As I put myself
Back on the shelf
To gather more dust
Onlookers fade away
I’m less attractive now
Less fun to play
Who likes damaged books?
Hard to always repair
Much better a new one
Much less despair
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I know it’s not love
But I loved you
I loved you unconditionally
I loved every single thing about you
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I loved your eyes
I loved your smile
I loved your spirit
I loved your soul
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You had my heart the first moment our gazes met
You had my smile every morning we crossed paths
You had my spirit just being in your presence
You had my soul the first moment we talked
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Now I wipe tears from my eyes
Now I love you but I don’t
Now I just want to sleep
Now I don’t want to be here anymore
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This time of year is hard
For every single person that is alone
You can do it
Keep going
Power through the tears
Let them out
Don’t be ashamed
It is so good to cry
It is what makes us human
If you can
Talk to someone
You’ll feel so much much better
Even when you feel like you just want to give up
You can get through
There will always be negatives
There will always be positives
Focus on who you love
Give everything
You are beautiful
You are special
You can do this
I want to go the beach
I want to find my friend
I want to take my clothes off
And go around the bend
I want to love my partner
To sensually intwine
I want to give them everything
Everything that’s mine
I want to feel them on me
To feel myself inside
I want to feel the waves beat
As our skins collide
I want to see the water
Thrash against our skin
I want to push my hands in
And tickle away the sin
I want to feel lost
Till I can never be found
I want you inside me
Like I never knew how
I want to release so hard
Like I never have before
I want it to last forever
And to go on forever more
Will you be with me
When the sun goes down
Now we are wearing each other
As we finally drown
I love to watch from afar
Your every move, superstar
To see you dance and see you play
To hear you talk in every way
A goddess so charismatic I rest in awe
Being around you never a chore
Getting closer now, I can almost touch
This love for you is turning to lust
I can smell your scent driving me wild
Instinct eating me, pure and vile
As my claws come out I pounce upon
I never miss, this won’t take long
As I open my mouth and feast on your neck
I take from you your final breath
It’s nice to see the orange and the blue
To wake me up and push on through
To start with the freshness of the day
To respire and blow the dust away
I need this feeling to make me feel better
A funny little thing, just a bit of good weather
Taking deep breaths all the way in
Come on life, I’m gonna win
I am empty
I have never felt this drained
So many years
Constantly strained
I have nothing left to give
I don’t even feel I can fight
I have no gas in the tank
No wings to take flight
I always say yes
I have no courage to say no
A perfect idiot
What a freak show
Every depense
Is hemorrhaging me
My energy spewing out
Can’t remember the last time I was me
Your narcissistic ways
I’m sure you’re not aware
How you’ve always treated me
Did you ever care?
I wish I could say sorry for being me
I’m not all what I was meant to be
I disappointed you in everything I did
Every conflict I ran and hid
I forgot everything I messed it all up
I drove you crazy till you got fed up
I tried to seek help that didn’t help much
I disappointed myself, a messed up fuck
How can I love you when I can’t even love me?
I can’t escape my mind, no get out of jail free
I torture myself with every thought while alone
Who would I call if I picked up the phone?
No one listens or offers help
I’m too proud to ask for my mental health
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