New work

I just have to watch

I’m feeling as though in stasis

But I see all around

I have no impact

I cannot make a sound

I just have to watch

The world as it goes by

Wondering to myself

What is this life?

What decisions did I make?

Why did I love wrong?

Why am I so damaged?

Why should I go on?

I often feel anxious

I feel it boiling my blood

I cannot even breathe

My oxygen turns to mud

I feel suffocated

As I can’t talk anymore

Every day tasks

Are now such chores

Patience I have in me

I have to, or I’d go mad

Dealing with the life around me

As all I touch goes bad

One last deep breath

As I wish to forget

I can’t get out of this

My conscience will not let

Dare to Defy

On the run

On the run, on the moors

Can’t do it anymore

Physical, mental, punishing

Cold, foggy, grass glistening

Breath in front of face

All that empty space

Impossible to feel fingers

Biting frost lingers

Unwanted, unmissed, worn

Clothes in a state, all torn

Return to home in woods

Between bushes near a brook

Sleeping bag hung to dry

Out of the regard of others eyes

Tins of beans all to eat

Would kill for some meat

Surrounded by branches and dead leaves

This luck he would never of believed

Solitude, loneliness all he knows

Rejected waster, way it goes

Living this each and every day

Months now, this his only way

Been attacked, spat on, urinated on too

Drunken men, nothing better to do

He’ll take, steal do what it takes

No choice now, life at stake

Feel sorry for him for where he is now?

He manages, we wonder how.

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Taken from my second poetry book

Dare to Defy

Freedom

When you hear the word freedom

What do you think?

Speak openly, no propaganda

Work, live eat and drink

We are fortunate, very in fact

Not killed for speaking, protests or acts

We are not in camps, malnourished, ill

Doctors a plenty, pharmacies dish out pills

Pushed into slavery, sex toys, prostitution too

Simple life, coffee, work, family, house, true

Complain, go on, tired, no money, stress

Our life is easy when we consider the rest

We have freedom, we can achieve, obtain

Reflect before contemplating about your pain

Others are worse off in poverty

Others escape war and certain death

Others eat rationed rice

Others live what they call life

Will you think about their freedom tonight?

Their country with practically no human rights

This poem is a thought about them

One day we’ll make a difference, when

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Taken from my second poetry book

Dare to Defy

Rise up!

Life getting you down?

Chin up my friend

Your not crazy

Stop going round the bend

Stay positive

Live life to the full

Embrace your lover

Grab the horns of that bull

Cherish every moment

Even the bad

Do something different

Be a lad

Be adventurous

Do something daring

Life’s too short

You should be raring

No regrets

Dont you dare

Come on you

I wanna see your flare

It’s coming now

I can see it in your eyes

Your a joy to behold

Lost your disguise

It’s not for me

Do it for you

Go on my friend

To yourself be true!

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Taken from my second poetry book

Dare to Defy

Happy to be alive

Hey, be positive, take it in your stride

Life getting you down? Poke it in the eye

The do’s and dont’s are very clear

Chill out, relax, have a beer

Dont be down, why that face?

Go to it now your happy place

Boss a jerk? Doing your head in?

Get him back, car keys in the bin

Partner mean? Treat you rough?

Leave their ass if you’ve had enough

Are they better than you? In your eyes

Stop being negative, no need to despise

Had an argument? they get the better of you?

Be bigger then them, agree, what it takes to do

They cannot keep you down if your positive enough

Even when it hits the fan and you feel rough

You are strong, you do matter

Look at your life, it’s not in tatters

Examine the good, do a few good deeds

Say “on this day I do decree”

To march forth with a spring in your stride

Because by gosh chaps, I’m happy to be alive!

01/11/2017

Taken from my second poetry book. Find it here

New work

I hope tomorrow I’ll be fine

Sick of being used as a pawn or a chump

So from now I’m certainly gonna start being blunt

Told what to do for so fucking long

Used to love her, or so goes the song

Try to change everything about myself

Even the state of my mental health

Tried being considerate, caring a lot

But I have to confess, I’m losing the plot

I tried to love, to care, in every way

Every initiation, I was pushed away

Until rejection invaded me, heart and soul

It tore my in half, no longer whole

She asked me to love her, to show I cared

I stopped wanting to, then I was scared

We drifted apart, never the same again

I lost a lover and I lost my friend

Plasters cannot mend severed hearts

We just need to have fresh starts

Maybe one day I’ll feel better again

I’m tired at the moment, all the same

To throw away our love that whimpered out

To now have nothing and to go without

To hate the day, to just want it to end

Feeling depressed, going round the bend

I breathe and move on and hope for a sign

But for now I just hope tomorrow I’ll be fine

New work

I need to feel better

What will you throw at me today?

What suffering do I deserve?

I am at the doctor’s for medication

As I have nothing in the reserve

I’m all out

I quit

My last bit of will power

Has turned to shit

I cried for an hour

I’ve had four hours sleep

I’ve lost 3 kilos

I cry when I speak

I admit I need help

I can’t go on

It’s not a form of weakness

You have to fight to be strong

My heart may not be with me

My head in space somewhere

Depression can be beaten

Even though I’m scared

It won’t be forever

Hopefully not too long

I need to feel better

Otherwise I am done

New work

A new start

I used to love you

But even that seems a dream

We can’t even talk

I always make you scream

I stay silent

It’s better that way

I’ll just make it worse

Being there today

I count my words

Just in my head

If it was out loud

I’d cry instead

I don’t remember

How to smile

That is forgot

Forever while

I starve myself

I don’t want to eat

I lose myself

I don’t want to speak

I don’t matter

Anymore

I’ve just become

A depressing bore

I don’t want anyone

I ask to be free

A new start

Try to be happy

erotic

Fantasy of a teacher

I can’t stop thinking about you, I anticipate our lesson every week

The way you talk, the way you teach, it makes me feel weak

I fantasize about you when you are there

You dazzle me with your gorgeous hair

I imagine I am the only one in the class

I can’t stop checking out your toned ass

I wonder what’s underneath your blouse

I bet you’ve silky skin and how

Your talking, professional, as always

Your eyes always attract my gaze

How do I tell you how I feel?

I will wait till the end of the lesson and kneel?

It’s so long waiting for the time to pass by

I see you looking at me out of the corner of your eye

The others are working, heads are all face down

You put your pen in your mouth, licking all around

Oh my god I’m rock hard I can’t even move

What have you done to me, oh I do approve

You unbutton one button and pull down one side

I see your neck, I’m here hypnotized

The class is over, I can’t get up

Embarrassingly enough, I’m up and stuck

The class walks out, there’s just me and you

You approach me, oh god, what are you going to do?

“i know what you want, we haven’t got much time”

“relax, enjoy, I’m going to make you mine”

She unzips my fly and releases me from my trap

She drops to her knees and starts sucking just like that

She looks at me with her eyes, turning me on

She leans forward just enough to expose her thong

Oh my god, she’s amazing, she is so good at that

I can’t stop myself, oh god there’s no going back

She continues to suck she doesn’t even stop

Oh my god she took it all, every single drop

” Now perhaps you can concentrate in my class”

“i saw you every time checking out my ass”

I zip myself up amazed at what just went on

The next class starts to enter “come on class, move along”

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Phil lister 30/09/17

An old poem I shared previously. Why not let some of my old erotic work out

New work

Snip snip

5 am arrived

Into the shower

Washed with antiseptic

For what felt like hours

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My daughter got up

Ate breakfast with me

I enjoyed my hug

Made me happy

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Taxi arrived

Already stressing

Do I have to pay?

Or keep guessing?

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Arrive at hospital

130 euro taxi

Fuck a duck

Tring to axe me?

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Book in now

Taxi lady goes

400 to pay for op

That fucking blows

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So stressed waiting

Did I prepare everything?

Did I forget

What was that thing?

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Into another room

Do this do that

Listen well

Focus like a cat

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Getting naked

Putting on my gowns

Stress exploding

Frown frown frown

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Stuff in lockers

Last interview

Almost there

Want to spew

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Taken to be knocked out

So friendly there

Oxygen and tube

I’m scared

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Felt so heavy

Finally blacked out

Woke up gingerly

Heard someone shout

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10 o’clock

That was quick

Didn’t take long

To snip my bits

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A nice nurse checked on me

She had a look

Don’t mind me

Said it was all good

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Out to the box bedroom

For coffee and cake

Looking around

What a funny place

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Blood pressure low

Feel I’m gonna faint

I needed to pee

Had to complain

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Doc comes out

All good to go

Follow the rules

3 months to show

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Finally back

Taxi lady nice

Drove a bit fast

Still have my life

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Made lunch

My balls hurt

Hunger solved

Do not exert

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Relax now

Write for you

I’m calm now

Will have to do