You were always honest

I cannot complain

Right from the start

The rules were the same

Wanting and wishing

For a little bit more

To feel closer

To warm my core

We started so well

It felt so good

I just don’t know

What I understood

The passion was so raw

Our appetites strong

Just the honeymoon period

Stringing us along

The text messages

Every single day

You were my friend

Keeping my demons at bay

I felt so close to you

That there was a spark

Me be foolish

Following my heart

The distance always comes knocking

The silence lasts a day

Before it was not possible

Just wasn’t our way

We became just partners

Good for an hour

The moment always great

The afterwards sour

I tell myself we need to talk

Even if I’ll be sad

Because lying to ourselves

Will just be as bad

You arrange for us to meet

Our first date in two months

I feel happy again

I didn’t know it was a front

I go to kiss you

You seem a little off

We sit down talking

In the shade to cool off

You wouldn’t let me take a photo

You’re so beautiful in your dress

I thought your actions were off

Something to get off your chest

It’s been a while

And you don’t see any sparks

I listen to you

Fidgeting with the grass

We both had similar thoughts

And this time it’s the end

I was losing you

And a friend

We sat in silence

As I rip up the grass

Listening to music

As people walk past

I decide to leave

As we walk to the car

I kiss you on the cheek

And say goodbye

I love this feeling

Wondering all over again

Could it be

Are you not just a friend?

I would never have thought

In a million years

I’d interest you

That you could ever be near

Nearly every thought

Is a dream of you

I laugh to myself

As I don’t know what to do

I am being patient

And giving you time

I’m wishing to the stars

One day you’ll be mine

Why does it concern you, what I do, who I see?

Why does it bother you, me saying I’m happy?

I don’t owe you anything, you use me when you want

We used to be friends, till I realised it was just a front

It was my fault before, our first ever mistake

You ignored me for months, you had such hate

Then out of the blue you’re back, as you would do so many times

Wish I knew this before, this was your time to shine

Am I am poet?

Do I wish to be heard?

Do I want to have a voice?

To sing like a bird

I just want to talk

To be related to

To read something in my words

To have a meaning true

Not just someone uttering nothings

Instantly forgot

Straight away to be burie

Just to matter not

To cry myself to sleep

With my thoughts incurring

Never left alone

My brain is always whirring

I know I tell it true

Alone like so many others

It’s really not a problem

Just being another

As I write again about the rain

I like how it makes me feel again

The coldness on my skin as it trickles down

It traces my face and across my frown

As I raise my hand to catch the drops

To gaze at the clouds and trace the plots

Darkness all around ever so near

No need to be frightened, no need for fear

The storm will pass, it always does

It never lasts long enough

I shudder now in my sodden state

It never was a mistake

I’ll do it again every time

It’s a choice that is mine