If today I said something
That yesterday I would not dare
Would I be respected
Would they even care
To have the courage
To be honest for once
If not to the other person
To myself, the important one
Tag: depression
Learn from our mistakes
Thoughts run through our head
Free as the wind
Doubts and regrets
Weeping in
Not knowing ever
Which way to turn
Only from our mistakes
Do we really learn
To for once have a voice
Looking for escape
From this rigid place
Impossible to go
Let alone evade
There is no door
Nor has there ever been
To think for myself
Would just be obscene
Trapped by all decisions
Weighing ball and chain
Never have enough
It has always been my bane
The air is now choking
Oxygen becomes gas
As I seek an exit
This sad story alas
My one last ounce of control
To make my own choice
To be a courageous coward
To for once have a voice
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Life, why?
Fate is such a funny thing
You seem to be made to pay for your sins
It was that I can’t understand
Men in power with their woeful plans
What does it achieve? What does it gain?
Apart from torture, torment and pain
Back to my life as you can see
I have pain and torment inside of me
When will I realize that I am a pawn?
I am just a playing piece waiting to be worn
I realize now that fate is a funny thing
It thrives on controlling everything
It teaches us lessons, it gives us hope
Sorry I lie; it gives us false hope
Who asked for diseases? I can’t understand?
It’s the man in power again, with his woeful plan
This is life, c’est la vie
If you don’t like it just try to flee
There’s one way out, as the lights go dim
You have now paid for all of your sins!
In a dark place
Help, help, I can’t get out….
Why can no one hear me however much I shout?
Help help, I’m deep in a hole…
Please help me, help my soul.
Help help, I’m all alone…
But nobody is there to hear my moan.
I’m black and blue,
But no one knew
What I’m going through
They’ve got no clue!
It’s hurting so bad,
It’s hurting like mad,
It’s making me go
Fucking insane.
Ahhh how I’m screaming
Ahhh how it’s hurting
Hear me now
Hear me loud!
What are you deaf?
You can’t hear me?
I’ll fucking scream
Till I can’t any more.
I need to get out
I can’t go on
It’s just too much
It’s just too tough!
This is my nightmare
This is my life
I’m gonna end it
With this knife!
Tick tock
I am sitting here (Tick Tock)
I am watching the clock (Tick Tock)
I am alone (Tick Tock)
I am at home (Tick Tock)
Why so depressing? (Tick Tock)
Why this lesson? (Tick Tock)
I want to end it (Tick Tock)
To stop that clock (Tick Tock)
Slower and slower (Tick Tock)
Beats the clock (Tick Tock)
For I am calm (Tick Tock)
With bloodied palms (Tick Tock)
I have done it (Tick Tock)
Set myself free (Tick Tock)
Now I see the light (Tick Tock)
My clock has stopped, No Tick Tock
The roses wilting
The roses wilting
Over the side of the glass
Sensed they had given up
Could not forever last
My sickening feeling
Inside of me
Sadness seeping out
Wanting to be freed
They look so tired
As if it’s the end
Flowers to one side
No way to mend
As I gaze down
Studying the floor
A tear leaves my eye
I can’t do this anymore
Grabbing the stalks
Piercing my hand
Throwing with force
Don’t care where they land
As I collapse to the floor
Feeling sorry for myself
I have given up
I need to find help
That’s a big mistake
That boy at school
Life already so hard
He teases me
Every day a new start
.
I never asked for this
To have him in my class
He always bullies me
Such an ass
.
He laughs with his friends
Just because he can
I don’t have any
No one understands
.
I work by myself
Always apart
I wear it on my sleeve
My fragile heart
.
Why do they have to be mean?
What did I ever do?
Am I so different from them?
Why do they exclude?
.
Days and days
This torment goes on
Nothing changes
The same repeating song
.
I can’t tell anyone
My mum doesn’t even care
I’m getting sick of it
I’m really scared
.
Being threatened now
Thumped in the chest
Shirt ripped down the side
I just want to rest
.
I am so fed up now
So I will bring an arm
I will wait for him
This time I will inflict harm
.
The last day of school
Before summer break
He decides to attack me
That’s a big mistake
Be strong
Remembering when
We used to be small
When we used to laugh
A joy to be born
.
When parents could be nice
We weren’t beaten and bruised
Just relying on innocence
Not knowing the word abused
.
But a few of us unlucky
To be where we were
Silence and quivering
Not daring to stir
.
Not to get up early
Or to make a noise
Mustn’t disturb them
Cannot have a voice
.
The beatings taken
Black and blue
Bones cracked
Shattered through
.
Shy children
Not daring to talk
Too scared at school
It showed in the walk
.
Where would we go?
If we could ever run
What would happen to us?
If we returned home
.
We can always talk
Escape can be made
Talk to someone, anyone
You can get away
.
You can always talk to someone. The scariest part is leaving. There are always people that can help.
Be strong
I got 99 problems
I got 99 problems but my book ain’t 1
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