To think about someone

To be thought about too

To talk to someone

Who listens too

To fight with someone

Who gets upset too

To care about someone

Who cares for you too

This loneliness I feel

Wishing to be loved

By someone

By myself.

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My heart permanently throbbing

I’ve always hated silence

Reminding me of my prescence.

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That clock ticking

Every tick a second lost

As if my time priceless.

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I’m so happy that you’re back

Your absence was long

I was like a shoe

With the laces undone

Walking around

Waiting to be re-tied

Back to normal

Change despised

Now in my arms

I need it more than you

My insecurities laid bare

I need a hug from you

I feel so much better

Knowing that you’re there

Oh how I missed you

With your golden blonde hair

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Taken from my latest book searching for you

Was I missed my dear when I walked out the door

What did you do my dear to be curled up on the floor

I just came back because I forgot my coat

Not for you you stupid bloke

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Taken from my latest book searching for you

Tears be not a form of weakness

But a form of strength

For all the hurt received

You would go to any length

Never giving up

Through all the hurt and strain

Always resting defiant

No matter what the pain

So when that tear falls

Not one ounce of regret

Be proud of yourself

And never ever forget

We can take a photo of this moment

The one second everything is perfect

Forget all our past forever devouring

The snide comments, poisoning cloud

Mist soaking us through, transpiration so

Weather for today may be overcast

But the filter can always be changed

Cracks to be hidden or smoothed over

Smile like you have never smiled before

Sell it to them, your soul to leave

Your only wish, the perfect photo

To be believed

A shell of myself

A husk crimped to shreds

I am what you want me to be?

Sold out to the world

Change for a soul

Just who decides

Control relinquished

For this object you call

Me

Tired of being what you want me to be

I will never be good enough

My soul sucked by your every wish

Your selfish thoughts

Your every desire

To change me to something I am not

You never see me smile

Because of hurt inside

It is your fault

You did this to me

My anger so bitter I could

Well

No

I wouldn’t know how

To escape this poisonous gauntlet of love

Or so called

One day you will see