I remember before
When things were good
When we smiled
When we laughed
When we cried
When we made love
When we talked for hours
When we cuddled
When we were close
When we were happy
When we were sad
That’s all they are now
Memories
Everyone is welcome
I remember before
When things were good
When we smiled
When we laughed
When we cried
When we made love
When we talked for hours
When we cuddled
When we were close
When we were happy
When we were sad
That’s all they are now
Memories
Are you out there?
That one perfect soul
What do you look like?
If I was blind I am sure I would still know
Perfection doesn’t have to be perfect
You don’t even have to be beautiful
I just hope one day we can meet
Listening to the piano
Chiming beautifully in my ears
Melody dancing calmly
As the tears form on my face
I can forget for the moment
All the pain
As I don’t have to think
I can just release myself
As if a butterfly from its cocoon
Tired in all its work
Exhausted but ready to take its leap of faith
As it spreads its wings
Basquing
Beautiful anticipation
As everything turns to slow motion
The colours dancing
As the wings start to clap
That beautiful angel is parting
Fly angel butterfly
Fly
Put one between my eyes
I hope I don’t feel it
Can’t be anymore painful
Than now
Because who doesn’t like muguet

I can’t wait to see you again
A week felt like forever
Fading from my memory
But never forgotten
Your hair
Your blue eyes
Your smile so sweet
I can’t wait to see you
And hold you in my arms
I need my drug in my system
To give me back my energy
My will to live
I’ve been so empty with you away
I will cherish every moment
We will pass together again
My little girl
I just can’t wait
Sleep tight
Daddy will be there soon
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Pause
Take this moment to look around
Take in your surroundings
The people talking
The pictures on the wall
The weather outside
Relate to the pictures
Reminisce
Daydream in to the past
A past where you enjoyed life
Where you don’t have to be where you are now
Escape
Zone to freedom
Out of your own silence
Close your eyes
And reflect
What do you need?
Really?
Lose yourself
Run through all the green meadows
Smell a million flowers
Remember the scents
The rose Brocéliande
A fresh pavoine
The curry plant that entices you to brush your hand against it
Jump into a bed of blue bells
And feel their petals
Leave yourself there
I love the flowers
I love their beauty
The warmth of spring
As all the leaves grow
Then comes the flower buds
How glorious to watch
To wait
The anticipation is unbearable
I hate to wait
But I have to
I have no choice
When the flower is ready
It will reveal its beauty
The sun will shine
Day after day
And eventually
It will bloom
In all its magnificence
I love roses, dhalias, lillies and sunflowers
Everyday I will admire you
While you are there
Looking over me
Until your final bloom
I am always sad when you stop
When you leave me
And all of your flowers die
To the ground
I hate to see you departed
Because it means the cold is coming
The snow the hale
The wind and the rain
I hate this weather
Even if I know it is essential
The rain always depresses me
I will always stay inside
And bide my time
Until one day
That I clear the weeds
And I turn the ground
And I see all these glorious bulbs
I leave them dormant
And wonder what they were
It’s always so amazing
So pretty
Until they stick their heads back out
To say hello again
For what was once beautiful
Will always die
We will cut its limbs
And it will come back stronger
More beautiful
I can’t wait to see you
My angels
I will look after you
If you will look over me
I love my pretty flowers
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Close your eyes
When you finally sleep
I will be there
Can you feel me?
My presence?
That breath on your neck
I’m watching you
I can see what you are feeling
Thinking about me
Pretend it’s me
You have my permission
Sweat beading on your brow
I love how your lips curl
Your teeth so cute
As you open your mouth
Yes
Feel my burn
Your breath audible now
Cover falling off
Is it getting too hot?
Mmm I love seeing you touch
It is me
Bite your lip
Make it bleed
Can you feel my lips on yours?
Hand inside your panties
Touch yourself
I’m here with you
Rising your body
Arching for me
Ripping your top off
You invite me to smell you
Oh vanilla
I can taste you
Pulling down your panties
Revealing your trimmed hair
I can see how wet
I blow hot breath
Sending you to ecstacy
Them clouds look so soft
As you grip the cotton
More you beg
Do you want me?
You have to really want me
Before I can satisfy
Every one of your desires
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My emotions are really overcoming now
Trying to be strong
But the shell has been cracked
And water is forcing itself in
I don’t know what will kill me first
The suffocation or the want to leave
The tears won’t stop coming
I can be free but I don’t want to
I could leave but I don’t want to
I could end it but I don’t want to
I could live but I don’t want to
I don’t want to eat
I don’t want to live
I don’t want to work
I don’t want to love
I don’t want to be loved
Overwhelmed is a feeling?
Purgatory is possible when we are alive?
When I die I want to be burnt
I want to be free
Don’t put me in a box
Forcing people to visit me
Let me fly one last time
Let me feel the wind
I love not feeling it’s coldness
It feels good not being cold
I’m tired
I wish I could be helped
This soul is lost
It’s hard to find light
When darkness is all around us
I cut my eyes out
Because I don’t want to see anymore
Please take them
Please
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