Why is depression so overwhelming?
It seems as if fighting it is useless but I don’t even know why it is there.
I didn’t go to bed with it but it lays with my head on the pillow and when I look at myself brushing my teeth.
The car journey to work automatic as my brain tells me stories of what I can do as it holds me captive as I cannot switch off.
It is so heavy, piggy backing me while I get my coffee and sit down at my desk.
Thank god I have my job to push these thoughts away.
Get off my back!
Some of us like to be alone
Time to process on our own
Not wanting to be around others
Feeling trapped, feeling smothered
It started when you was young
You never really did like fun
Bullied at school, always picked on
Just wishing that they would be gone
In college, things should have been different
But most of them were just ignorant
Work passes by, not many friends
Nothing much changes, same old trends
Didn’t really like clubbing or drinking a lot
Dancing around badly, looking like a twot
Prefer your own company, just better like that
Prefer your solitary confinement, that’s just a fact
If it makes you happy
But you just wanna cry
You don’t understand it
And you keep asking why
Don’t stop fighting
You can get through this
You are strong now
Come on, one last wish
Searching for you is a collection of poetry about love, heartbreak and happiness. A raw journey looking at our search in life to find ourselves and that special someone.
For so long I have been used
Forever drank from
Forever eaten from
From one place
To the next
Never really thought about
Sure there have been chips
But I have lasted
If you really look after me
I could last for another generation
But if you don’t take care
Just for a moment
I could fall
Maybe I could be glued
To be used again
I’ll never be the same
I sometimes wonder what’s the point
As I do the same each day
Depression seeping deep within
It makes my mind decay
As I search for a way to change my life
And escape from this hell
That jolting felling deep within
Will it never quell?
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