Everyone is welcome
Your words to me I will never forget
They left a scar, an instant regret
A tsunami of tears left my eyes
Couldn’t understand why you despise
What did I do to deserve this pain?
Why did our relation have to strain?
The biggest hurt in all of this
Saying goodbye without a kiss
The stars are beautiful tonight
I’m hoping to always see this light
So beautiful, glistening in the sky
I gaze on watching, as I lie
Wishing that it would never end
That the darkness would never descend
A perfect view, panoramic all around
All is quiet, not even a sound
This beautiful moment, cherished in the dark
Forever in my mind, a permanent mark
I will never forget this amazing view
Magical stardust, I’m in love with you
The first moment our eyes met
I began to gaze
My eyes fixed on you
In a fuzzy haze
.
I could not control myself
Nor would I want to
For that very moment in time
I fell in love with you
If we can’t forgive
We can’t carry on
We hold on to hurt
We would like to be gone
What’s past is past
The future is now
Forget regrets
Change somehow
Fuck the haters
You toxic waste of space
Why the hell are you here?
In my sacred place
.
Did you need to comment
To say I needed help
Are you really concerned?
For my mental health
.
If you got nothing nice to say
Don’t say anything at all
Stop getting your jolly
At making me feel small
.
No one needs your opinion
If you’re using a knife
Your words cut deeply
You could even take a life
.
I hope you realise
The hurt that you caused
When you took your two minutes
And shit on my wall
.
Probably not
You pathetic piece of shit
Stop bullying people
And button your lip
.
We certainly are not the best
When talking of our hurts
We always do just what we do
And everything gets worse
.
We row and row and never stop
Until we are blue in the face
We never stop to think about
Giving each other some space
.
When we really need to discuss
We do all we can to evade
When things have gone on surely like this
Is it not time to escape?
.
As the sun starts to rise
The darkness falls
The cold disappears
And we’ll have a ball
.
We open up
And reveal ourselves
Ready to be taken
As if on the shelf
.
Feed on us
Suck us dry
Rub yourself
Don’t be shy
.
That orange glow
Feels so good
Irreplaceable
Nothing could
.
As it eventually fades
To say goodnight
We start to close
As we miss our light
.
Off to sleep
Until the next day
See you soon
We’ll be back out to play
I need to get away
From this abuse so bad
Taking its toll on me
Feeling so sad
.
He’s not violent with me
At least not physically
Although it’s still torture
The way he bullies
.
You just wouldn’t know
He’d never do it to your face
The mental abuse
I feel so disgraced
.
I wonder why he does it
Why he has to control
He enjoys his puppet
That he can mould
.
Whatever he wants
His every whim
I have to do it
Or else he is mean
.
It just never stops
Again and again
I wish it would
I feel such shame
.
How to get out
How to leave
I’m tired now
I just want peace
Why do we continue?
In our history
There’s no happy ending
No wonderful to be
The talking has finished
Between me and you
Silence envelops us
It is what we do
It is always the other’s fault
Blame always has its place
Pointless arguments
In one another’s face
Depression setting in
I am sure for you too
Cause it eats at my soul
Devouring me all through
Hopelessness to leave it all
To find my own place
Being together a day
We need our own space
It’s impossible to quit
To say those last words
To read the final page
To fly off like a bird
When kids are involved
Tearing us apart
Shattering us to pieces
Breaking our hearts
That final decision
To close that door
For it will never re-open
Your decision, evermore
.
Taken from my latest poetry book
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