Why do we continue?
In our history
There’s no happy ending
No wonderful to be
The talking has finished
Between me and you
Silence envelops us
It is what we do
It is always the other’s fault
Blame always has its place
Pointless arguments
In one another’s face
Depression setting in
I am sure for you too
Cause it eats at my soul
Devouring me all through
Hopelessness to leave it all
To find my own place
Being together a day
We need our own space
It’s impossible to quit
To say those last words
To read the final page
To fly off like a bird
When kids are involved
Tearing us apart
Shattering us to pieces
Breaking our hearts
That final decision
To close that door
For it will never re-open
Your decision, evermore
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Taken from my latest poetry book
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Glad you do Catherine, glad you do
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A beautiful poem, but so sad, Phil. I was thinking about you this morning as I noticed you hadn’t shared anything for a while. How are you doing other than the heartache you are experiencing? I hope you’re doing okay, or as okay as you can be. It’s nice (if that’s the right word) to see you back again. Ellie
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Hi Ellie, yes I’m ok, bit hectic at the moment, on holiday after tomorrow, thought I hadn’t posted in a while. Ups and downs same as everyone. Have a good evening, until next time.
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What a painful and realistic poem.
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Thank you so much for your words.
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How do I escape? I’m so scared. Have you ever done this?
Why didn’t anyone try to help me?
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Are you ok? Do you have someone? A friend or a relative?
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My mom will be here tomorrow. She told me to have a plan, but I can’t plan because I start panicking and can’t act normal. He’s taking me on a getaway, and I’m terrified. I have heaps of faith now. I’ve been wandering the desert, alone with my made up friends, for a while. I believe I’m safe. ❤️🌻
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You need to listen to her, I can understand that your alternate reality is what gets you through it all. Use it for as long as you need to. I hope you are safe
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I think I am. I’m just praying and eating candy. I’m getting a bit chubby, but whatever. Who do I need to impress? I just lost over 60 pounds recently. That was random, sorry.
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Good for you on losing the weight, I hope you did it for yourself
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Well, probably, deep down.
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It’s nice to talk to a real person.
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Always good to communicate
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No one besides you replies. Maybe you’re the only real person.
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The truth is, they made up lies that they believed. And didn’t see that I was being hurt. All I wanted was help. I just needed 1 friend. Just 1 to tell me how to get away without dying. Now, I reach out for help from the people who were making fun of me and making up lies about me. Great world we live in. Don’t save a scared girl because you think she’s slutty (I’m not).
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That seems terrible that you are in this situation. If you need to get away is there a way that you can? Plan it, think it over in your head. Only you can know if it is right to leave.
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I will leave. I just needed someone to talk to. When he asks what’s wrong, I tell him I’m afraid of the trip… Which I am. But I’m ok. Just have to be weird because he was watching my blog.
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Ok, you are welcome to leave a message or reply if you need to talk or just to breathe.
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Thanks. I’ll try to stop spamming you. I just liked to be able to talk to a real person. I’ve been lonely for 14 years.
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That’s a long time
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Gotta admit, it was so long that I have something really big to work on, for the healing. Something I’m really proud of. And I’m not telling ANYONE. I used to tell him everything, and wondered why he didn’t believe in me.
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Yes I’m a real person, last time I checked. It’s good to have something to work on, certainly whatever makes you proud is a good thing. Do whatever makes you happy. Even that one piece of satisfaction or good news is more than you had before.
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I shouldn’t have vented to you. I’m sorry for using you for validation. Thanks for being a real person, though. It was good to speak to a real person. I need to heal myself now. But I wanted to apologize for the basically what was abuse (using a stranger for validation).
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Don’t apologize, I was genuinely worried about you yesterday, I wrote a piece thinking about what you said to me yesterday. Until the next time. Don’t hesitate if you need to talk.
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I’m working on finding better outlets for my fears. ❤️🌻 Thank you.
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And I’m sorry I worried you.
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Lol don’t apologize. It’s only human
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