I offer you my heart
As yours is already gone
I refuse to accept their’s
As they are not the one
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Rendez-vous
Nervous, heart pumping
Appointment soon
Thoughts colliding
Impending doom
.
In the car
Radio loud
Having doubts
Wondering how
.
Receptionist scolding
Wrong room
Sorry miss
Face of doom
.
Hour waiting
To see the doc
Scrolling videos
On tiktok
.
Finally the moment
Take a breath
Approach the room
What will be next?
Sure I won’t be missed
I hate money
It’s control over us
Can’t get enough of it
It causes such a fuss
.
Everything depends on it
Can’t get away
Always need more of it
At the end of every day
.
Debt comes to bite your ass
And it rips you a new hole
It tosses the windows out
Until the vacuum takes hold
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There are always others
That are much worse off than me
But my biggest stress of all
It has its way with me
.
So much worry
So much stress
Sometimes wondering
What is this test
.
Cars always breaking down
Kids to pay for
Working for your job
Feeling like a whore
.
Now we have to live to work
To pay all the fucking bills
Eating all my insides out
Like a poisonous swill
.
What is next to save myself
To get away from this
Put a bullet through my skull
Sure I won’t be missed
Suffering weep
So so young
In the bedroom alone
Dark dark feelings
In the family home
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Penknife out
Grating the skin
Starting to cut now
Pushing within
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Feeling the pain
Gritting the teeth
Seeing the blood
Feeling misbelief
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Tears of rage
Flow from eyes
Hating everything
True despise
.
Hating life
To finally stop
Giving up
Had enough
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Laying down
Looking up
Regretting now
The open cut
.
Old t shirt
Wrapped around
Foetal silence
Not a sound
.
Tired now
Suffering weep
Teary dreams
Fading to sleep
I surely will subside
Through the storm I am here
Always at your side
But if you don’t look after me
I surely will subside
.
Taken from my latest poetry book
How can we be together?
I will wait for you
But not for forever
If you doubt in us
How can we be together?
I never got to ask you
I never got to ask you
And now I never will
So many thoughts in my mind
Alone is how I feel
.
I cannot hit stop
My mind will not allow
If only you could hear me
My voice, somehow
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What happens to our love
When we drift apart?
Where does it go
When we have to restart?
.
How much do we have to hurt
Before the pain subsides?
Does it hurt for them as well
How it hurts me inside?
.
Will it just pass away
Along with the time?
Will it just stay with me
One day to feel fine?
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As lying to ourselves
To suppress the obvious truth
Seems easier to us
Than seeing the actual proof
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And which of us is unbroken
Tattered in shadowed thoughts?
Now feeling enormous regret
Wishing that they had fought
Fill my void
Do I deserve someone to fill my void?
Forever looking but feel destroyed
Tarnished by myself, my self-belief
That longing too much, just no relief
I am not a catch, I’m ugly and fat
No one could want me, it’s a fact
Dated for years to find just one
That perfect person, special someone
I don’t want a fling, nothing less
I’m not interested in emptyness
My bed is empty as I long so much
To feel close to someone, just to touch
To whisper sweet nothings all through the day
I don’t think it’s for me I am afraid
To feel loved and wanted, all that I ask
Maybe I am dreaming? I’m having a laugh?
Please one day, let me meet my match?
I’m sure they’ll be great, a real catch
Someone
To think about someone
To be thought about too
To talk to someone
Who listens too
To fight with someone
Who gets upset too
To care about someone
Who cares for you too
Ella’s first day at school
Hello everyone,
I am happy to announce my new children’s book “Ella’s first day at school” a nice little story in verse about overcoming anxiousness as a child.
Thanks to my daughter I decided to write this for her and can’t wait to have the book in my hands to read it with her.
Hope you enjoy it.
Phil
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