Tag: depression

depression · Life · New work

Ups and downs

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I don’t understand

Why my emotions are so strong

Like being prodded with a stick

What is going on?

One moment I am up

I am ok with the day

I don’t need it to end

I do not feel afraid

But then there are the downs

And they really mess me up

Looking always for the escape

Cause I want it so much

I try to control my emotions

To get on top of them

But sometimes they’re stronger than me

It drives me round the bend

Why is it so hard?

To get along with life

We always just seem to cope

Trying not to subside

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depression · Life · New work · Rhyming poetry to change your day

The roses wilting

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The roses wilting

Over the side of the glass

Sensed they had given up

Could not forever last

My sickening feeling

Inside of me

Sadness seeping out

Wanting to be freed

They look so tired

As if it’s the end

Flowers to one side

No way to mend

As I gaze down

Studying the floor

A tear leaves my eye

I can’t do this anymore

Grabbing the stalks

Piercing my hand

Throwing with force

Don’t care where they land

As I collapse to the floor

Feeling sorry for myself

I have given up

I need to find help

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depression · Life · New work

Help…

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I have never felt so alone

When surrounded by many

I have never felt so imprisoned

Even though I am free to go

I have never felt so hopeless

Even when I can choose

I have never felt so lost

Even though I know the way

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My tears I cannot cry

My thoughts I cannot lie

My angst I cannot suppress

Even though I try

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Trapped doing the same each day

The same old daily grind

Gaping hole inside of me

The bottom you won’t find.

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I have never felt like escaping

As much as I do now

To end it all as a coward

The only way I know how

depression · Life · love

Confrontation

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Confrontation never easy for me

Always so scared

To vent my wishes

To be heard

Falling on deaf ears

I scream to be heard

Those words cutting

Tearing through you

A thousand knives flicking flesh

Passing through aimlessly

But damage persists

Blood spewing from the violence

Of my words

Blindfold on

I wish not to see

Fallout from my radiation

As I scream aloud again

Remaining skin no more

I have spoken

I told you I don’t like confrontation

No

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depression · Rhyming poetry to change your day

Tick tock

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I am sitting here (Tick Tock)

I am watching the clock (Tick Tock)

I am alone (Tick Tock)

I am at home (Tick Tock)

Why so depressing (Tick Tock)

Why this lesson (Tick Tock)

I want to end it (Tick Tock)

To stop that clock (Tick Tock)

Slower and slower (Tick Tock)

Beats the clock (Tick Tock)

For i am calm (Tick Tock)

With bloodied palms (Tick Tock)

I have done it (Tick Tock)

Set myself free (Tick Tock)

Now i see the light (Tick Tock)

My clock has stopped, No Tick Tock

Phil Lister 07/03/03

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depression · Life · love

Unsavable

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Nothing can describe this emptyness

Never reaching chasms

As if falling continously

Unscared, unworried

Nothingness, air passes by

No sound

Turning and turning

I want to feel

To drive a jagged rock through my body

To suffer real pain

Fear to impose

Adrenaline to envelop

Outer body outer mind

I can only look on

This pointless solitude

Cannot be helped

Cannot be heard

Patheticness

Pityful screaming inside

Let me fall

I am

Unsavable

fantasy · Life · love

My mask

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After a hard day, fed up with the world

All them haters, head chiming like a bell

Just want to get them back, suffer like me

Haunt the taunters, that would make me happy

Upon a mask I stumbled, plain and dull

With this little baby I’m sure to lol

I get to painting, let’s make it a beast

Scary as hell, need that at least

Now to the smile, frieky as can be

That’s a little psycho, just like me

Upon my tired face I wore the mask

Only for myself to once again laugh

Uncontrollably so, the mask took hold

I was to be bad, destiny foretold

What I felt inside me, fear guilt and sin

Upon my cursed face, sadness in a grin

Reflection so deep, my regrets in life

Never had I posed the question, but why

And now my passion for life diluted

Wearing a mask just convuluted

I feel empty, grating feeling inside

My life had been based on so many lies

Cannot continue with the truth, this pain

I took off my mask, please, never again

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depression · family · happy · Life · love

We cannot go back

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I’m a great believer in karma

As you may already know

I believe what goes around comes around

That’s the way it goes

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I’ve had some proper shitty weeks

It’s been all getting so much

Then my car broke down

Turned out to be the clutch

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I had had enough

I cried like a child

My dog comforted me

It lasted a while

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I been asking myself

Is it cause I don’t believe?

I try to be selfless

And the occasional good deed

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First stress this week over now

My dog has gone to a good home

She has companions

And lots of space to roam

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I’m still waiting a call for a job

Been a week in all

Every time my phone goes

I think it’s THE call

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Still awaiting news for the car

Gonna cost a bomb

So much work to be done

Going on for so long

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Tomorrow stressing me now

Judgement day

Will change all our lives

It is the only way

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So I try to stay positive

Although lots of negative crap

Think about the future

Because we cannot go back

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