depression · family · Life · New work

Self doubt

Why do we seek acceptance in everything we do?

Sometimes I wonder if we even have a clue

We go from day to day just getting by

Living out our day throughout our own lies

Sometimes we reflect, a little too much

Sometimes we don’t, how much is enough?

Is it really acceptance that we seek?

Is it really self doubt that creeps?

But our biggest fear in all of this

The worst fact, that mustn’t be missed

We fear rejection above all else

It hits us hard, our mental health

Until we can’t go on, it eats us alive

Because with self doubt, we can never thrive

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depression · Life · managing depression

It all started when…

This is

My once upon a time

When the suffering commenced

And I began to rhyme

Family problems

With mum and dad

They were separated

I never liked that

As I was scared

Scarred in my heart

As a lost soul

Where to start?

Easy to cry

Never understood

Impossible to help

As if you could?

My shell protecting

From the outside

Impossible to open

This was my life

I would curl in a ball

To be alone

I hated myself

This was my home

Quiet at school

Colorblind too

Difficult to make friends

Oh so true

I would hurt myself

To inflict pain

Scratching my arms

What did it gain?

Burning myself

To suffer some more

Days dragged by

Like a chore

I wished to punish

To harm myself

Through all the torment

The mental health

Anger so dark

Eating away

Hard to push out

To keep at bay

Although crying out

Silently so

I needed help

For it to go

If someone was there

To listen, just that

It would of helped

A selfless act

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Life · New work · Uncategorized

Saving the snake in the flames

A man saw a snake

Surrounded by flames

He tried to help it

Bitten and in pain

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The man dropped the snake

Back into the fire

He looked around him

His courage to be admired

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He found a metal bar

The snake wrapped around

He placed the bar down

Carefully to the ground

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A passer by saw his act

Questioning why he helped

“The snake’s instinct is to bite”

“But I just had to help”

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depression · Life · New work

Ups and downs

I don’t understand

Why my emotions are so strong

Like being prodded with a stick

What is going on?

One moment I am up

I am ok with the day

I don’t need it to end

I do not feel afraid

But then there are the downs

And they really mess me up

Looking always for the escape

Cause I want it so much

I try to control my emotions

To get on top of them

But sometimes they’re stronger than me

It drives me round the bend

Why is it so hard?

To get along with life

We always just seem to cope

Trying not to subside

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depression · Life · New work · Rhyming poetry to change your day

The roses wilting

The roses wilting

Over the side of the glass

Sensed they had given up

Could not forever last

My sickening feeling

Inside of me

Sadness seeping out

Wanting to be freed

They look so tired

As if it’s the end

Flowers to one side

No way to mend

As I gaze down

Studying the floor

A tear leaves my eye

I can’t do this anymore

Grabbing the stalks

Piercing my hand

Throwing with force

Don’t care where they land

As I collapse to the floor

Feeling sorry for myself

I have given up

I need to find help

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Current affairs · Life · New work

Corona

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It is coming you know for all of us

No one cares or gives a fuss

It’s just a cold a little bug

You’re invincible, dont give a fluff

People are dying all around the world

People are coughing, germs swirl

It started with one, one patient x

Where are we now? it’s complex

You may lose someone, someone you hold dear

Maybe that will make things a little more clear

Health workers are dying trying to save

Governments are struggling, just to stave

One thing we are asked by all of them

Stay indoors, be responsible my friend

Social distancing, one metre between us

Is it that difficult? really so rough?

This is just the start it’s going to be hard

Support the others, stay on the path

We will beat this, together as one

This is real, it is not just for fun

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