Tag: poetry

depression · Life · managing depression

I want to fit in

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I want to fit in but I am different from the rest

I want to be bigger but cannot help myself

I want to be beautiful but uglyness shines its evil light

I want to eat but just a little is too much

I want to be normal but I cannot help myself

I want to stop being sick but I can’t stop myself

How could anyone ever love my body when I can’t even love myself?

To look upon the mirror is to cry a river of tears at the person staring back

How can you understand when I am perplexed and confused?

How can you judge when I have been beat and abused?

I am tired from it all, I just want to be alone

The only person I trust is the person I hate

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depression · Life

Headache

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This headache is killing me

It’s hurting to try to see

Suffering seems to be my game

As I cower at the table with pain

Throbbing hard like a drum

Hurting lots, not much fun

As I crawl off to go to bed

Try to escape from my head

Take my meds, little pills

Swig some water, little swill

Under the covers in the dark

Dog outside, hear him bark

I cover my head I want to die

Waiting for this headache to go by

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My first poetry available for purchase.

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depression · Life · New work

Rest in peace

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I feel so trapped in all that I do

6 feet under, no way through

I see the light, through the cracks

Other than that, it’s pitch black

I can’t breathe, no air left

When will I take, my last breath?

I claw with my fingers blunt till the end

Searching for help, in need of a friend

This coffin won’t open, closed from outside

Waves are crashing, soil subsides

Deeper my box falls, hurtling away

I will rest in peace, better that way

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depression · family · Life · love · managing depression

Enjoy your food

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Never have I been so insulted by you

I prepared a meal which was beautiful

You were sat to receive my dish

You decided to take the piss

3 hours I slaved for that food

Your comments oh so lewd

What was it that you didn’t like?

Why did you have to snipe?

Well do you know what you can do?

Next time make your own food

Just one last thing do finish off

Splat, enjoy your food, I’m off!

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My first poetry available for purchase.

https://books2read.com/u/4AYydq

depression · happy · Life · love · managing depression

The peace of the park

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Oh I love the peace when we come to the park

I can hear the birds sing and lark

Watching the joggers as they pass on by

Reflecting on life, not asking why

I love the sun as it warms me up

Not too hot, its just enough

As I watch the water rippling in the sun

Kids feeding ducks, having fun

I stop to breathe and forget it all

Before I leave heaven and I fall

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My first poetry available for purchase.

https://books2read.com/u/4AYydq

depression · family · Life · New work

Self doubt

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Why do we seek acceptance in everything we do?

Sometimes I wonder if we even have a clue

We go from day to day just getting by

Living out our day throughout our own lies

Sometimes we reflect, a little too much

Sometimes we don’t, how much is enough?

Is it really acceptance that we seek?

Is it really self doubt that creeps?

But our biggest fear in all of this

The worst fact, that mustn’t be missed

We fear rejection above all else

It hits us hard, our mental health

Until we can’t go on, it eats us alive

Because with self doubt, we can never thrive

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My first poetry available for purchase.

https://books2read.com/u/4AYydq