Pathetic excuse for a father
Pathetic excuse for a lover
Temper frayed from sleepless nights
Rage envelops with a fright
Snaps in a moment, fist through the door
Argument ensues, emotion so raw
Go on hit me, I deserve it, sorry excuse
Losing it like that, what a recluse
My boy there innocent, said nothing wrong
Aggressive dad, what are you doing, it’s wrong
Take him back to his mums, he falls asleep
I am so sorry, so pathetic, I start to weep
A six year’s olds comments, cuts like a knife
It’s shocking how they look at life
I drive off to work, one thing on my mind
End it, now, escape from this bind
Crash the car, crash it good
Wreck myself break it, if only I could
Selfish of me, to walk out on my family
My kids, my girlfriend what life to be
In the biggest mess I ever could be
I’m certainly the lowest ever I’ve been
Christmas makes you feel really down
Certainly this evening I did nothing but frown
I’ve calmed down now from a suicidal rage
All this because of a depressed snap rampage
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Oh Phil. This is wonderful, with the raw emotion and honesty. I can only hope that this isn’t real life for you! Everyone gets down. Everyone makes mistakes. The best thing to do is forgive yourself, ask forgiveness of your family, pick yourself up and keep going. They need you. WE need you, here in the world, because you make it a better, more beautiful place. ))hugs(( friend
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Thanks, it’s nice to here, poem is 100% real, what I felt today, if I didn’t have people counting on me I felt that low today I could’ve done it. My kids and my gf don’t deserve that even if I am a total arsewhole who feels sorry for himself and makes excuses cause I am that bad I punch a door with my son in the room, just pathetic, but it is nice to have a nice comment from someone who I know that can relate and thank you, it means a lot
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Phil. I am so sad to hear that. But again, it’s okay to make mistakes. Kids are resilient and I think it’s okay for them to see the full gamut of our emotions. I can only recommend that you sit down and talk to him about it. Explain that you were angry/sad but that wasn’t the best way to handle it maybe. This shows him you know you are human and make mistakes just like he does. Also, I recommend punching a pillow next time! Much better on the knuckles and wrist. I wish there was something I could do for you, to help you walk through this season of your life. It’s alright to have highs and lows…. but better to have a friend to walk with through the valleys and mountaintops.
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He’s better off with a living dad who has an anger management issue. You’re writing is part of the therapy. Breathe.
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Thank you, nice comment
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Wonderful poem.
Take some help,gain support, talk and cry as much as u want. ..punch and break things, but never ever loose hope.
May GOD bless you with strength.
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Thank you
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You’ll figure it out. Find some good expression and tear this m-fing house down with it!
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