How you made me feel
All of you, you cowards
What you put me through
Torture, torment, your reward
From so young, all my childhood
You picked on me
Was it funny? Enjoyable?
To have power, to be?
At first, seven to ten bearable
But dad changed schools
For a moment it was better
But I was never cool
Until twelve, it was ok,
I had my ways to cope
I was small, quiet, shy
But I would soon be broke
Cue the move again,
World upside down
I was messed up
All I did was frown
I was unpopular,
Always alone
Practically no friends
Kept moving homes
I was spat on
Punched, ridiculed too
Stolen from, psychologically tortured
Name it, that too!
I’ve cried, curled in a box
Took matches and knives to school
Bought a bb gun with me
Anything to try to be cool
I was pushed so much
I lost my head
I raised a chair in my hands
To strike a boy cause I saw red
I hated school
To feel so worthless
These bullies for me
Suffocated me, helpless
Hate is a very strong word
But for these childhood scums
I hope they suffer in their lives
For what they have done
I have no forgiveness
They do not deserve it at all
I hope one day they read my words
That they realize and feel small
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A very personal poem for me about young age and my experiences growing up.
Poem 2 in my book Rhyming poetry to change your day – available now for free download
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I know these feelings. You brought them back, vividly. I’d nearly forgotten them.
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Is it a bad thing? Have we changed since?
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Man seems as if you were just narrating my school years. Can’t say for others, but the years went, but the damage it did still stays. Idk if it ever gets any better, because it never feels that way for me. This poem made me kinda emotional. It is a harsh thing it talks about, but it’s written beautifully
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Thank you shounak. I’m sorry that uou went through the same thing. Bullying is a really hard thing while in school. I found it did not continue after I left fortunately and I felt much better in myself, unfortunately the damage was done. We can learn from it and put it down to an ugly experience. I’m glad you made a connection. It is what I have always hoped for with these words. Try and talk to someone if you can. Thank you for your words.
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My heart goes out to you. I feel your pain because I too was bullied in school for six long years. I was physically, verbally, and psychologically bullied. It got so bad that I attempted suicide at the age of 14 and almost didn’t make it. The bullying didn’t stop until I changed schools during my senior year.
Now, I use what I went through to help those who are bullied today and it’s a great feeling. Know that you are among friends in the blogosphere. Wishing you a very happy and prosperous new year.
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Hello cherie, thank you so much for your touching words. Yes life was hard during school years with the bullying.
I am sorry for the fact that it got so bad for you. I hope now that you are in a much better place in your life. Take care of yourself. Best wishes too for the new year.
Thanks for relating.
Phil
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Thank you so much. Yes, my life is much, much better now!
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A Great but sad write, I was never really the victim of long term bullying although someone tried in the first month of secondary school, it came to a head and a fight after that the bullying stopped but it did change me and how I viewed those that were constantly bullied. I always tried to befriend them or stick up for them and I´m proud to say that many years later I actually met one of those that were bullied that I stuck up for and he introduced me to his wife and baby daughter as “The only person who ever stuck up for him in all his school years.”
Sad but at the same time I felt quite proud.
Keep up the good work and know that your writings are appreciated.
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Do you know what, you have made my day, there are always poems that mean something to someone. I am happy to connect with you. Bullying is always hard to take, to be on the receiving end and to stand up for yourself. It really made a difference to that person obviously. Well done kind soul. Thanks so much for commenting, it means the world. Have a great day.
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