New work

A new start

Phil Lister

I used to love you

But even that seems a dream

We can’t even talk

I always make you scream

I stay silent

It’s better that way

I’ll just make it worse

Being there today

I count my words

Just in my head

If it was out loud

I’d cry instead

I don’t remember

How to smile

That is forgot

Forever while

I starve myself

I don’t want to eat

I lose myself

I don’t want to speak

I don’t matter

Anymore

I’ve just become

A depressing bore

I don’t want anyone

I ask to be free

A new start

Try to be happy

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Published by Phil Lister

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  1. Beautiful, painful and sorrowful. Have you heard about the expression, liminal space? Have you consider that when you come to a threshold or to the end of the persona you know yourself yo be, you are in liminal space. It can be terrible and frightening as transformation happens. Imagine the larva within the cocoon, and all of a sudden being blinded by this bright light. It is so bright you may go blind or have to shut your eyes for some time. But then, as you slowly open your eyes to see, you will see a new beauty. The beauty of a deeper self within you. Trust the experience, fall into it, talk to someone. And I will pray for you, as you cross the River Styx into a new life, a new way of seeing. A seeing from within. If interested I am trying to describe this new beauty in my last blog post on http://www.contemplation.blog Anyhow, hang in there, new life is on its way. PS! Remember, you may need help to cross this river. I have had to reach out many times during my life.

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