Everyone is welcome
How can we feel so lonely
When surrounded by everyone
Feel like such a waste of space
Unwoven and undone
Sinking uncontrollably
Clockwise down the plug
Choking on oxygen
Cause we’ve had enough
Looking for a way out
Through the putrid mud
Reaching our hand out
For someone to love
Tears cry tears in waterfalls
That we cannot control
Life is a confusing mess
That every day implodes
.
Taken from my latest poetry book
I wish I had someone to talk to
How can I feel so alone?
Surrounded by my family
In my own sweet home
.
I can’t put my finger on it
Unable to understand
Why do I contemplate?
How do I withstand?
.
Constantly looking for an exit
I could leave if I want
Always putting obstacles
So that I won’t
.
Am I selfish
As I think of myself
What would I become?
If I became someone else?
.
I sometimes fantasize
About what could be the end
I think I need some help
I think I need a friend
.
Taken from my latest poetry book
I always tried to love
But I never learnt how
.
Taken from my latest poetry book
I sometimes think of the noose
The great escape
The selfish greed of getting out
Leaving everyone to clear up the mess
.
The heavy sack on my back
Voluntarily pulling me down
I don’t want to breathe
I don’t want to fight
.
I’m tired
Good for nothing
What do I give?
What is the point?
.
If I could I would
Just give up
Fade away
Who the fuck cares
Talking with you I look for the answer
But maybe I just never asked the right question
.
Taken from my latest poetry book
I don’t know what hurts more?
The knife in my chest
Or the fact that you’re leaving me
.
Taken from my latest poetry book
How can I fix myself?
When I don’t know how to
The manuel was never written
And the service is due
Numb inside
Living with myself
Feeling constantly
On the shelf
.
I am difficult
To be around
To live with
Make others frown
.
It’s inside of me
Can’t explain it
I’ll just write
For now
.
Nothingness
Always and at once
Aching
To feel like before
.
Time has passed
Change too
I won’t
I know me
.
The sacred path
That we wonder
If it even
Exists
.
I’ll never get there
Nor do I want
All is fake
A myth
.
Hope is overrated
Live to die
Only waiting
Million questions why
.
We’ll just never know
Answers evading
Like the new
Disease
.
At least it’s better
Than suffering
Trying to work out
And explain
.
This horrid mess
We call a life
Make our mistakes
And ask. Why?
I offer you my heart
As yours is already gone
I refuse to accept their’s
As they are not the one
Nervous, heart pumping
Appointment soon
Thoughts colliding
Impending doom
.
In the car
Radio loud
Having doubts
Wondering how
.
Receptionist scolding
Wrong room
Sorry miss
Face of doom
.
Hour waiting
To see the doc
Scrolling videos
On tiktok
.
Finally the moment
Take a breath
Approach the room
What will be next?
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