Numb inside
Living with myself
Feeling constantly
On the shelf
.
I am difficult
To be around
To live with
Make others frown
.
It’s inside of me
Can’t explain it
I’ll just write
For now
.
Nothingness
Always and at once
Aching
To feel like before
.
Time has passed
Change too
I won’t
I know me
.
The sacred path
That we wonder
If it even
Exists
.
I’ll never get there
Nor do I want
All is fake
A myth
.
Hope is overrated
Live to die
Only waiting
Million questions why
.
We’ll just never know
Answers evading
Like the new
Disease
.
At least it’s better
Than suffering
Trying to work out
And explain
.
This horrid mess
We call a life
Make our mistakes
And ask. Why?
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aah – hearing my exhaustion spoken back at me through your voice was what I needed tonight; thank you
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You’re most welcome Barbara
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This is very poignant, Phil. I hope this isn’t how you are feeling right now. I’m never sure whether your poetry relates to how you are now or whether it is one you wrote a while ago when you were feeling so low. If that’s how you feel currently, please know I am thinking of you and that I care. Stay safe, Phil … Ellie 😘
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Hi Ellie, yes this was me today, and probably me tomorrow, it comes in fazes, just have to wait for it to pass. We all feel rough sometimes, sometimes can’t even explain it.
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Take good care of yourself, Phil. Thinking of you x
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Thanks, I’ll be ok, just get through it
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I’m trying to dig deep to find out why I feel that way. It’s really exhausting. Sometimes it even feels like I’m losing sense of who I am, the longer I feel numb. Other times it feels like I’m living someone else’s life and I can no longer keep up with this persona I’ve been portraying. It’s very confusing and paralyzing. Almost self-sabotaging? Thank you for writing this poem 🙏🏻.
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Hello, I’m glad you could relate to my poem, sometimes we feel so so so down, nothing can help and we just want the world to swallow us up whole, or even just to escape the daily grind and all the problems that come with it. I hope you find the good path. Always welcome to comment and chat, will always reply. Thanks for taking the time.
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